Big Question of Relationship?????????

What is it that attracts a man to a woman ??and Why does things change over time..

I think its because our appetite for love starts visually with the size of my boobs and the roundness of my ass and the sparkle in my eyes and the rating of” sexy woman”.

And then starts the journey when eyes are visually happy to when the mind is looking for the answer..is he the one???or Is she the one..??or Is she hot in the bed ??or how many girl friends he had before..

NO..I should say a big no..we all start on the wrong foot..The problem is in today’s world definition of love has been altered to simple parameters and adjustment to these parameters.. 

A girl or a boy who is simple,honest loyal,a real good one is not appreciated how much a naughty,demanding,plastic individual would be..because most people run behind individual they think would make them feel loved instead you have to be love with yourself..No body can make you feel what you cannot feel yourself.

Because we all want to love someone..whom we like and whom we fancy and wish to have..Instead of simply being in love..instead of simply waiting for right things to come to us..We all just rush to feel nothing but emptiness in the end.

I am a loser in the area of love and relationships.Most men have not thought of me except when they get booty call..hehe..Now that’s funny because I want to be loved and so my every experience becomes sensual and romantic for me..Instead my partners never feel the same like me..and I always wonder why is that ..I realize that’s because I wanted to emanate happiness in their life and they sucked all the pleasure in a black hole..No happiness comes out of such a relationship..

So whats the conclusion of all this I may not have my heart stuck up into the same heart before I ever was in love.But I have the knowledge and experience to understand that I should never have done the same mistake I did every time..”To be in love meant for me to love someone and be loved in return and feel the completeness”which is not the truth.The real meaning of being loved is “When you are happy and someone really wants to add to your happiness every moment of your life not to fill his/her emptiness but because that also emanates happiness for him/her and around..Love is not a relation..its a emotion ,a energy which beats inside us..and we cannot find it in other..”…

True love would be two people sharing the love they have in them and instead not find the person who would make me feel loved..

P.S I love you

I think I lost the battle of love.I am not beautiful,may be I am not the best but I am surely not the worst.I have never harmed anyone and would never do.I feel how sometimes true love is not enough to explain somebody how much we care for them.I was surprised people confuse it with obsession.

I am very broken..Some people might comment that I need a psychiatrist.But they are wrong I just need to be loved.When time and over again and again..people who meet in your life just want everything to be temporary and not forever then you have to ask yourself.Is it seriously that something is wrong with me or that I have not met the person of my life.

Well,I might sound like a emotional broken heart woman ,which I am right now but at the same time I am asking myself,what did I do wrong.It takes a lot of courage to trust and love someone once it seriously fails once in your life.You recover from your past experience like a changing pupa into a beautiful butterfly and still to enjoy the short one day journey of your life even when you know it all ends at sunset.But then you still enjoy your voyage isnt it.I took the same courage and tried to love again but it left me no where between life and death.

Depression and darkness takes over when hearts break.I feel like I lost the confidence I had in me about myself that I am someone..because somebody made me a nobody in the last few days..I wish the best for him ..I do not know how to cope up..with all this..Probably I should also write a song like Adele.:P..but no,I will try to get my life straight somehow..I want him to know that sometimes we think what we have is the best ,probably its only because you have closed your vision to things which are better around you.

I love you and will always do..I am not angry or jealous or upset and I am only disappointed  that I had not been able to give everything probably that you desired from that someone special in your life.But I should say I would have thrived to be the best if you had ever asked me..I cannot change myself but I can try to be better than I am…

It’s just that you don’t have any reason to leave..it’s just that you are running away from yourself..I am sorry for both of us..You will stay forever in my heart how much you run away..I might sound like some movie to you..but then I am speaking the truth…

Yours only,

Pandorina

P.S I <3 you

Love is forever..!

Today is in a way for the time being the last when I am seeing my love.I am so confused and scared and sad.I am confused because I do not know what should I do to not make his or my heart cry.And scared that ,things would not be the same.And sad because I cannot stay without my other part of the soul.

Love is so brutal !! yet intoxicating..the reliever of all pain in life and the reason as well..I have had the best moments of my life till now with you.I can never forget you or ever stay without you.Life is hard, I have to go..and either way it could have been otherwise also that maybe you had to leave.We knew it from the beginning that our love is lived everyday,its too distant to think of even the next day.But you see, it was destiny, that we became so close.It’s one of the hardest moments of my life.

I am trying to be optimistic and be positive that No!!!!this cannot be the end.I cannot accept that.I am always there with you.My wishes would always think the best for you and my love will always protect you and support you and your happiness.Dont forget me..I love you.My heart is yours…